It has been 14 years since I became Mrs Ryan, although most of that time has been spent as a widow rather than a wife. Yet despite the widowhood, I always feel the need to mark my anniversary in some way.
This year, I marked the day by simply remembering. I looked through old photos and I thought back to our wedding and the plans that we had for our future. And I cried.
There are a lot of changes happening at the moment as I prepare to graduate from my PhD programme and it has made me even more aware that my husband isn’t here to celebrate with me. He’s not here to celebrate my graduation. He’s not here to celebrate new jobs or good running times. And he’s not here to celebrate our wedding anniversary.
But still, I know he’s here with me in my heart and my memories.
So, happy anniversary Paul. I luv ya, luv.