Today would have been my 15th wedding anniversary. And in this very strange time of social distancing and self-isolation, I find myself missing Paul even…
Today marks 11 years since my beloved husband, Paul, passed away so unexpectedly. His death has impacted my life more than I ever could have…
My primary goal for 2020 is to be a stronger and more confident me. But if I’m honest, it’s a goal that I have been heading…
And with that, it’s time for another annual re-cap post. Although quite how we’ve got to 31 December 2019, I couldn’t tell you! Yet, here…
It has been 14 years since I became Mrs Ryan, although most of that time has been spent as a widow rather than a wife. Yet…
It’s Christmas Eve Eve (which means that tomorrow is Christmas Eve) and I am acutely aware that this Christmas is different from all of my…
Note: This is one of a series of Zadar posts with photos. The other two are: Zadar: A Catholic girl’s paradise and Zadar: Everyday life for an everyday…
“You will feel better than this. Maybe not yet. But you will. You just keep living, until you’re alive again.” I heard this quote the…
Way back on February 6, 2002, my friend bailed out on a day trip to St Andrews. With nothing better to do, I decided to walk…
Two weeks before Paul died, we had a conversation about our futures, should one of us die—a conversation sparked because it was the anniversary of…
I managed to survive Christmas alone. I won’t lie and say that it was easy. In fact, it was so very hard. My broken heart…
I’ve decided to spend Christmas alone this year. I know that sounds silly to some people, but it seems like the right thing to do…
Way back in May, I had a failed attempt at re-entering the dating world—and that was after my ego had already been shattered! At the time,…
Another year, another birthday. Only he’s still not here to celebrate. My Paul would be 51 years old today, but instead he will forever be…
The day you’ve all been waiting for has arrived! Today is the day that I completed one of my life goals. Yes, today is the…
Graduation is on Friday and I’m really dreading looking forward to it. Oops, did you catch that error? Well, if I’m honest I’m not looking…
Sometimes I think about dating. Only it’s a confusing topic for me. Not the dating part; I know how to do that. It’s more the…
Today marks one year since I hit the reset button on my future. Yes, it’s been one year since I moved back to my beautiful,…
There is something ever-so-cruel about random memories. OK, not always. In fact, most of the time random memories are happy moments. But sometimes, like today,…
A friend of mine sent me a link to a fellow widow’s blog this weekend and I had a wee peek around to see what…