Today is a special day in my life. Today is the day I become the answer to life, the universe, and everything. Yes, today I am 42!
Birthdays are a bit of a challenge for me as I have a long history of bad birthdays. And since Paul died, they’ve been even more challenging. And so, I tend to isolate myself for them. It’s not that I don’t celebrate, I just chose to celebrate on my own. (Mostly.)
And for me, 42 is a very, very special year. It is, as I said, the year I become the answer to life, the universe, and everything. It’s a powerful year. It’s a year that needs to be marked with greatness and achievement!
To celebrate this big day, I’ve taken myself away to North Berwick for the weekend. Yesterday, I enjoyed a bit of adventuring at Tantallon Castle, along with a walk along the coastal path back to North Berwick. And today, I shall conquer The Law! Oh yes, I shall! (It won’t be hard. Or at least, it’s not meant to be!)
But 42 needs more than a weekend away; it needs a full year! And I am planning to really make something of this year. I am going to work hard towards my running goals. I’m going to work hard towards my desire to take better care of my own needs. And I’m going to work like holy heck to get my PhD thesis submitted before the clock ticks over to 43.
Of course, it would be silly to put too much pressure on myself just because I’m 42. After all, I have faced a lifetime of lessons that can be summarised as: Things will go completely haywire; there will be meltdowns and malfunctions; there will be demolitions and lost towels; there will be rubbish cups of tea and even more rubbish poetry; and there might even be an intergalactic war or two.
Or to summarise the summary: Just because I’m the answer to life, the universe, and everything, doesn’t mean that life is going to be perfect this year. In fact, it probably won’t be a perfect year.
Or to summarise the summary of the summary: Life is neither fair nor perfect.
But it’s my year. It’s my chance to attempt to control my fate (yes, God, I hear you laughing). It’s my chance to try to find a bit of success in my little corner of the world.
So, here’s to 42; here’s to being the answer to life, the universe, and everything!
(Bonus cool-kid points to anyone who gets the various references to HHGTTG!)