Shortly after we got married Paul and I started a new tradition of monthly dinner parties. Parties to which we were the only guests. It…
I had a long, partly mostly tear-filled conversation with a friend today where I went on and on about many of the fears and uncertainties…
The thing about grief is that sometimes it just hits you out of nowhere. Yesterday was such a great day. I really enjoyed spending time…
It’s been nearly a month since I posted about being stressed and unhappy and I hate to admit that not much has changed. I’ve had…
I’m really struggling this week. Actually, I’ve been struggling for a couple of weeks now. I’m sad and I feel quite helpless about it. I’m…
Sometimes I want to scream at the top of my lungs. I want to yell. I want to shout. I want to wail about how…
I removed a large grasshopper from the house today using Paul’s special bug-removal jar. The old peanut butter jar took on the duty of bug…
I struggled with how to start this post, or if I would even write it at all because it’s hard to know how to “announce”…
It’s been about six months since I started working with the monument company on Paul’s headstone and I’ve finally seen the first photos of the…
I met with my real estate agent the other day about the possibility of putting the house on the market. He gave me two tasks…
I have a house full of stuff. Stuff I accumulated before I ever met Paul. Stuff Paul accumulated before he ever met me. Stuff we accumulated…
I met with my real estate agent today. He came into my home and looked around; he’d not seen it since shortly after we moved…
I feel stuck some days. Frozen in this place of fear; this place with an uncertain future. I guess I thought what so many people…
Anyone who has known me long knows that I am one of those geeky, overly-organised, slightly obsessive-compulsive, and highly meticulous people. Oh, and I have…
Being an early adopter of Widowhood means not only learning the kinks and bugs on my own, but it also means that I have to…
“How do you refer to your husband when talking to other people?” Note: This post was originally shared on my “widowhood” blog, “Frances 3.0: Still…
I moved the bed around in my room yesterday. It’s the first “big” change since Paul died more than a year ago. I suppose I…
For a few months now I’ve promised myself that I would finally tame the desire to hike to the top of the Wild Horses Monument…
I don’t know if it’s better to face things head-on or to find distractions, but personally, I prefer the latter in many cases; today being…
Five years ago today, I became Mrs Ryan. It was truly the happiest day of my life. This is my second wedding anniversary without Mr…