Today is Ash Wednesday and the first time I’ve gone to church since Paul died, other than his funeral and memorial service and a wedding.…
I hear voices in my head most days. I hear these little quips and one-liners; I hear comments and jokes; I hear moans and groans;…
My new year’s resolution was simple this year, or so I thought. I resolved to find a bit of joy in each day. The idea…
I’ve gotten quite good at forgetting that I’m a widow at times. I can be rather comfortable laughing and joking and just being “in the…
I’ve found myself at a fancy hotel for work once again. It’s one of those really fancy rooms with a separate living room and a…
I went to visit Paul’s gravesite at the weekend and realised that it might be the last time I’m able to sit there and talk…
The first flakes of snow have started to hit the region and while it’s blanketing the ground with soft, white flakes, my heart and soul…
Paul and I used to spend a lot of time talking about our relationship. We’d reminisce about the early days, talk about the present, and…
Sometimes I feel very angry and I can’t figure out where to place the blame. I know that my anger is part of my grief,…
The process of grieving and mourning is really starting to wreak havoc on my physical being. This, in turn, intensifies some of the mental and…
One of the hard parts about grief is not knowing when it’s going to hit. I can be going about my day quite happily one…
I’ve heard a lot of things over the past five months that have taken me by surprise. From “helpful” comments about how I should be…
I met a man the other day who lost his wife not long ago. He is now faced with raising his young children alone and is…
Four months ago today, my entire world was shaken to the core and all of the certainty I’d come to rely on was taken from…
It’s Friday. I used to really love Fridays – it meant the start of a weekend, which meant two full days with Paul. I remember…
When you lose your partner, you lose so many things that you may not even realise you had. I’m still learning what those losses are,…