Sometimes I feel very angry and I can’t figure out where to place the blame. I know that my anger is part of my grief,…
I joined a grief support group a couple of weeks ago and have found it oddly comforting, even though I’m the youngest one in the…
I booked my ticket for a holiday to the UK today. Now I’m happy and sad; I’m looking forward to my trip and I’m dreading it.…
I reflect quite often on the Desiderata these days. Mostly because I know that my Paul wants me to be happy and the words of…
One week before Paul died we spent the day working in the yard. I remember sitting on the edge of the flower beds removing mulch…
The process of grieving and mourning is really starting to wreak havoc on my physical being. This, in turn, intensifies some of the mental and…
One of the hard parts about grief is not knowing when it’s going to hit. I can be going about my day quite happily one…
I’ve heard a lot of things over the past five months that have taken me by surprise. From “helpful” comments about how I should be…
There’s a crispness in the air now that the fall weather has started to settle in after a long summer. I’ve always enjoyed the confluence…
I met a man the other day who lost his wife not long ago. He is now faced with raising his young children alone and is…
I’m in this really weird place right now where I don’t want to let go of the past and I don’t want to move forward.…
I spent the last few days in a fancy-schmancy hotel in downtown Seattle. And being there made me realise how much I miss Paul; how…
I’m taking a holiday in November, and I should be extremely excited about it. I’m going to Scotland, the place where I feel most at…
It’s not all doom and gloom in my mind. Some days – most days – I think about the happy moments I shared with Paul and I even manage…
Paul’s grave marker was placed at the cemetery in England last week, and his family sent photos of it so that I could see how…
Typical of so many couples, Paul and I never spoke in specific terms about funerals. We’d chat here-and-there about things, but neither of us ever said…
Four months ago today, my entire world was shaken to the core and all of the certainty I’d come to rely on was taken from…
It’s Friday. I used to really love Fridays – it meant the start of a weekend, which meant two full days with Paul. I remember…
When you lose your partner, you lose so many things that you may not even realise you had. I’m still learning what those losses are,…
We’ve all heard the question a million times before: How are you? We’ve all asked the question a million times before, too. What I’ve found…