I spent nearly two weeks in the UK with family and friends, and have returned feeling refreshed and relaxed. A break was just what I…
I’ve taken my first solo holiday, spending nearly two weeks in England and Scotland visiting family and friends. Read the original story about my holiday here…
I’ve gotten quite good at forgetting that I’m a widow at times. I can be rather comfortable laughing and joking and just being “in the…
I went to visit Paul’s gravesite at the weekend and realised that it might be the last time I’m able to sit there and talk…
The first flakes of snow have started to hit the region and while it’s blanketing the ground with soft, white flakes, my heart and soul…
As strange as it sounds, there are days when I wish I could go back to Day One of the grieving process and start over.…
It’s Halloween. I should be excited and giddy; it’s always been a much-loved holiday of mine. In the weeks leading up to it, I would…
Paul and I used to spend a lot of time talking about our relationship. We’d reminisce about the early days, talk about the present, and…
Sometimes I feel very angry and I can’t figure out where to place the blame. I know that my anger is part of my grief,…
I booked my ticket for a holiday to the UK today. Now I’m happy and sad; I’m looking forward to my trip and I’m dreading it.…
One week before Paul died we spent the day working in the yard. I remember sitting on the edge of the flower beds removing mulch…
One of the hard parts about grief is not knowing when it’s going to hit. I can be going about my day quite happily one…
I’m in this really weird place right now where I don’t want to let go of the past and I don’t want to move forward.…
I spent the last few days in a fancy-schmancy hotel in downtown Seattle. And being there made me realise how much I miss Paul; how…
It’s not all doom and gloom in my mind. Some days – most days – I think about the happy moments I shared with Paul and I even manage…
Paul’s grave marker was placed at the cemetery in England last week, and his family sent photos of it so that I could see how…
Typical of so many couples, Paul and I never spoke in specific terms about funerals. We’d chat here-and-there about things, but neither of us ever said…
Four months ago today, my entire world was shaken to the core and all of the certainty I’d come to rely on was taken from…
I was a lucky woman. I had a wonderful husband who always wanted me to have the best things in life. He wanted me to…
It’s Friday. I used to really love Fridays – it meant the start of a weekend, which meant two full days with Paul. I remember…