Being an early adopter of Widowhood means not only learning the kinks and bugs on my own, but it also means that I have to…
The last few weeks have been really hard. It seems that the closer I get to the anniversary of Paul’s death, the more memories I…
Today is Ash Wednesday and the first time I’ve gone to church since Paul died, other than his funeral and memorial service and a wedding.…
It dawned on me today that it’s been nine months since I buried Paul. I just don’t know how that’s possible. I still have trouble…
My new year’s resolution was simple this year, or so I thought. I resolved to find a bit of joy in each day. The idea…
I had my first doctor visit of the new year today as a follow-up after becoming quite ill on Christmas day. Sadly, a new year…
It’s the first new year of this new life and I wish I knew what it had in store for me. For possibly the first…
I spent nearly two weeks in the UK with family and friends, and have returned feeling refreshed and relaxed. A break was just what I…
I went to visit Paul’s gravesite at the weekend and realised that it might be the last time I’m able to sit there and talk…
The first flakes of snow have started to hit the region and while it’s blanketing the ground with soft, white flakes, my heart and soul…
As strange as it sounds, there are days when I wish I could go back to Day One of the grieving process and start over.…
It’s Halloween. I should be excited and giddy; it’s always been a much-loved holiday of mine. In the weeks leading up to it, I would…
Paul and I used to spend a lot of time talking about our relationship. We’d reminisce about the early days, talk about the present, and…
Sometimes I feel very angry and I can’t figure out where to place the blame. I know that my anger is part of my grief,…
I joined a grief support group a couple of weeks ago and have found it oddly comforting, even though I’m the youngest one in the…
I booked my ticket for a holiday to the UK today. Now I’m happy and sad; I’m looking forward to my trip and I’m dreading it.…
I reflect quite often on the Desiderata these days. Mostly because I know that my Paul wants me to be happy and the words of…
The process of grieving and mourning is really starting to wreak havoc on my physical being. This, in turn, intensifies some of the mental and…
I met a man the other day who lost his wife not long ago. He is now faced with raising his young children alone and is…
I’m in this really weird place right now where I don’t want to let go of the past and I don’t want to move forward.…