April is upon us again and if I’m honest I’m dreading the entire month. I remember two years ago when April Fools’ Day rolled around – Paul…
Seven years ago today, Paul proposed marriage to me when we were in Venice. So, I thought that I’d share the story with you today.…
I’ve spent much of the weekend going through Paul’s old university newspapers and clippings. It’s strange because many of the stories feel like ghosted memories…
One of the things on the “to-do list” before Paul died was to purchase new bedroom furniture, including bedside tables and lamps. We had everything…
Today is the first day of spring, but despite the cluster of purple crocus sprouting up just outside my kitchen door, it doesn’t feel like…
I have these conversations in my head where I shout at myself for being so stressed and unhappy and apathetic, then I tell myself to…
Bob and Dave* are my kidneys. Bob to my left; Dave to my right. Both are riddled with cysts and are considerably larger than normal…
I think Paul laughed at me today. No, I’m certain he rolled on the floors of Heaven with extreme belly laughs. I think that he…
The last thing I expected from Paul when we took a mini-break to Venice back in spring 2004 was an engagement ring. I mean, I…
I think that one of the saddest things about not having children is the knowledge that there’s no one to pass on your traditions to.…
I finally got around to sorting through some of Paul’s stuff. In this case, it was a pile of stock leftover from his eBay business.…
My friend posted a list of 100 random things her daughter wrote about herself out of boredom and I thought I’d give it a shot…
I’ve always been a bit put off with Valentine’s Day. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I was…
Nine years ago today, my intended life plans changed. Only I didn’t know it at the time. I was living in Scotland whilst studying at…
I’ve been noticing in recent weeks that I’m not eating enough and I need to work on that. Before Paul died my diet and exercise…
I rarely go into the upstairs of the house these days because the only things up there are two guest rooms and storage. But I’ve…
I am American, born and bred to American parents. My ancestors are Germans from Russia. This means that I am not, contrary to the insistence…
As 2010 draws to a close, I find myself reflecting on the past year. And if I’m honest, I have to admit that it was…
I’ve really been struggling through this holiday season – much more than last year when I was still in a bit of shock and disbelief over the…
Shortly after we got married Paul and I started a new tradition of monthly dinner parties. Parties to which we were the only guests. It…