It’s been a bad day. It started good, but then something happened that caused me to come crashing down. I could tell you what that something…
We moved into our house on 15 May 2008. About a week later, all of the pink tulips planted along the front side began to…
Last month I decided to write a blog post about the one and only “mixed tape” that was ever made for me. Well, I say…
I’ve sold all of Paul’s old swords – finally. I’d gone through them with a co-worker back in February but hadn’t gotten around to doing much more.…
It’s been two years since Paul died, leaving me here to live in this world without him. When we promised “Until death do us part”…
I’m sure you’ve gleaned by now that I’m very anxious and frightened about my future. And I bet some people wonder why I’m putting myself…
Grief is one of those things you can’t really explain to someone who hasn’t gone through it. Even those of us who’ve experienced extreme grief…
Maybe you’ve heard me say it before, but when Paul died people said some pretty stupid things to me. And maybe you’ve also heard me…
April is upon us again and if I’m honest I’m dreading the entire month. I remember two years ago when April Fools’ Day rolled around – Paul…
I’ve spent much of the weekend going through Paul’s old university newspapers and clippings. It’s strange because many of the stories feel like ghosted memories…
I have these conversations in my head where I shout at myself for being so stressed and unhappy and apathetic, then I tell myself to…
I think Paul laughed at me today. No, I’m certain he rolled on the floors of Heaven with extreme belly laughs. I think that he…
It’s been a bit of a crazy month as I cope with a gazillion emotions swarming around my heart and soul. Then tonight, I sat…
The last thing I expected from Paul when we took a mini-break to Venice back in spring 2004 was an engagement ring. I mean, I…
I’ve always been a bit put off with Valentine’s Day. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I was…
Nine years ago today, my intended life plans changed. Only I didn’t know it at the time. I was living in Scotland whilst studying at…
I’ve really been struggling through this holiday season – much more than last year when I was still in a bit of shock and disbelief over the…
Shortly after we got married Paul and I started a new tradition of monthly dinner parties. Parties to which we were the only guests. It…
I had a long, partly mostly tear-filled conversation with a friend today where I went on and on about many of the fears and uncertainties…
The thing about grief is that sometimes it just hits you out of nowhere. Yesterday was such a great day. I really enjoyed spending time…